Since about last July, The Torch and I have been seeing each other as friends, emailing, flirting, talking for more than an hour on the phone, having dinner, etc. From my view, he ramped it up around March when he started asking me to accompany him to some social events. There's no denying that I enjoy the time we spend together. It's much better to have him in my life than not.
My position currently (and I can't say it won't change), is that I'm taking one day at a time. Enjoying his company, but no expectations other than we are both honest and respectful of each other. I'm trying to just let it be what it is, rather than pushing and pulling to control the universe of this friendship. I'm also keeping myself open to date others if they come my way, but I'm not really forcing that issue too much either.
One thing I've been thinking about during all of this is how much I've changed since I first met Torch almost 2.5 years ago. At that time I was newly single (separated in March, dating Torch in November of the same year), wondering how I would live my life, wanting something so badly. Now I know myself so much better, understand the Torch better regarding his worries about his life and future, and just understand the whole man/woman thing a little better. I'm better at the single life, better at being me.
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