Background for you, fair reader

I'm taking a brief moment to post quickly and catch some folks up on what happened between August and October.

When BuffaloBoy's old gal came into town, he was honest, and fair, about telling me. And I appreciated that. However, after a week (a week!) of not hearing from him, I became somewhat confused. Here was a man who had been taking me out at least once a week and all of the sudden, no communication at all. Not like him.

Finally, not really knowing what else to do, I sent him a low-key, but honest email saying that I was confused about not hearing from him and letting him know what I enjoyed his company, hoped to see/hear from him again and that no matter what, that I wished him well.

About two days later I get a long, rather heart-felt email from Boy. He let me know that he and ex-gal decided to spend the week together at the beach to "finish" things. Yikes! But knowing Boy, his "zen" way of thinking, etc., I decided to accept his apology. Again, he was very up front and honest. And he assured me that they were not looking to mend fences in any way, shape or form.

We went to dinner and mended fences ourselves. And so it continues. More to come, lovely readers.

Can I have syrup with my waffle?

I know that this is kinda ahead of the written story here, but I thought that I needed to keep writing or else I would never get caught up.

I've been trying to think about the relationship with BuffaloBoy and how I feel about him. Of course, it doesn't help that I'm still thinking about the Torch from time to time. Torch and I have also been back in touch, even seeing each other on a "friends" basis.

As I think about what I want (what IS it, anyway?) and who I would like to spend time with, Boy is looking good. His kindness, thoughtfulness, communication skills, honesty and willingness to HAVE a real relationship is key. And you just can't discount good men. There's not a lot of them out there. Or maybe there is, but not ones that you click with on all the right levels.

The Torch is a good man. But he obviously can't have a relationship with me (for whatever reason). I've been trying to move on completely for months and it might just be happening. The question becomes this: Am I moving on because of the feelings I have for Boy? Or am I moving on because it's just time to understand and accept that Torch isn't able to be who I need him to be.

Am I looking for a long-term with Boy? No. Not yet. Maybe never. But for right now, it's hard to beat someone who calls and says he can't wait to see me tomorrow night.

Time passes

Hi everyone. Sorry it's been so long, but life has been kind of crazy.

The big news is that I've been to the beach with the family, been to the beach with BuffaloBoy and have been to Italy with a friend. Life is good. No complaints over here.

And the other big news is that BuffaloBoy and I have moved to a new place, I think. It's long and complicated, but let me say in this quick post that it's hard to discount a nice person who is interested in having an adult relationship with honest, understanding communication. We're not in a big love by far, but I think that we're both getting to know each other and appreciate each other's company, views on the world, etc.

OK, late now and I have work to do for my class, so I'll catch up later.